So the countdown is on and I am trying not to freak out. Everyday I wake up and wonder, “Is today the day my world completely changes?”
I veer sharply from one end of the emotional spectrum to the other:
I am so impatient for her arrival that I could spit.
I am cranky.
I am so ready to wear normal cloths.
I am tired of looking and feeling like a Telatubby.
On the other hand…
I keep thinking of things I should do before she arrives and I pray that I can get it all done in time.
I am filled with delight.
I will miss having her with me at all times... knowing she is protected and safe.
I will miss my bump; aka, my favorite fashion accessory.
I have Googled every possible means of speeding up this process that I could think of.
I have even tried a few of the suggestions: Jumping jacks, fresh pineapple, walking, etc… let’s not get into details.
One thing is certain. I am not in control.
I take comfort in the fact that there is “Someone” who has already thought of everything, and has her birthday party planned down to the smallest detail...
One of my favorite quotes by a woman named Judy Squier found in the Keep a Quiet Heart by Elisabeth Elliot is this:
“I am convinced without a doubt that a loving Heavenly Father oversees the creative miracles in the inner sanctum of each mother’s womb (Psalm 139), and that in His sovereignty there are no accidents.”
Of course it is a powerful statement, especially coming from someone that was born without legs. But the truth can be applied to every aspect of life. God is in control.
So I cling to this thread as I swing from one end of the emotional spectrum to the other…
5 comments:
Hang in there, Jodi! I tried everything under the sun to get our first one here early, but nothing worked. :) She was born on her due date exactly! You are right. God IS in control and He knows when it's the best time for her to come.
Don't panic about getting everything done - easier said than done, I know.
She will be here soon and you will be a wonderful mommy I know!!
Oh, and about feeling like a Telatubby - I know your feelings exactly. Although I'm not nearly as cute as you when I'm pregnant and I still have 7 weeks to go - whew! :/
Take care! :)
I know EXACTLY how you feel & what you mean...except that I feel more like a baby whale than a teletubby! LOL I know we are going to be great moms...no matter how overwhelming the task seems sometimes! <3 ya & can't wait for us BOTH to be able to share our good news!!!
My first one came four weeks early and spoiled me! But my last two have been past their due date... sorry. I have no tips except stay busy and plan stuff to do so you don't have any empty days :>) you can always cancel something, but I'm such a planner it was really hard when I got to the week I was planning on giving birth and it didn't happen :>) I can't wait to hear that she has arrived!
I am so anxious for you too!! Great post and yes, God is in control at EVERY stage of life. I am learning this over and over again. love you
About wearing normal clothes.... that won't happen immediately after she's born. Maternity clothes will fit better and be more comfortable in that "transition" period after giving birth and yet still looking 5 months pregnant!
I know everyone says this, but she can't stay in there forever. Some kids may never leave home but they all gotta leave the womb!
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